Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Birthday Postings

Well today is my birthday and I kind of at first wanted a big milestone birthday party then I thought no I just want a few members of my family and we will eat supper and cake and all that jazz.  I think it will be so much easier to do it that way.  The kids have their Christmas program tomorrow and I am so excited.  I can't wait to see all the hard work that they did.  We are still dealing with our teenager daughter and her job not paying her her check.  They have come up with so many excuses.  She is going to give it a few more days than she is going to call the corporate office.  I feel bad that they are taking advantage of her.  Tomorrow morning they are going to induce my grandbaby.  I am kind of nervous and excited. I will finally be a grandma.  I think I am too young.  LOL.  My husband wants to be called grandpa I want to be called something else but I haven't desided on what that shall be yet.  I think it will be a busy day tomorrow wish me luck I really need it.  She has everything she needs though so that is good.  Talk to you guys soon.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

What I am working on this Holiday

It really surprises me how many well off rich people brag about saving money. Which they have done to stay rich and wthink to help the less fourtunate. I am flabbergasted. I had told a friend of mine who has big giant coupon hauls that she should donate to the poor and she never thought about it. I was like really. I have had good times and bad times and I don't know how many people could just think of themselves. I volunteer with our church I cook for others I make things I take others to appointments and I am not rich. I don't have the funds to donate money but I can donate my times and the talents that I have.   I am making blessing bags to give out to homeless making birthday boxes for domestic violence victims.   I really feel that this is contributing.  I like to help all year round.  I think that it makes me a better more grounded person.  I hope others do stuff for the less fourtunate this year your soul will thank you and your kids will love to do it as they get older.

Monday, November 12, 2012

New Changes are coming

I desided that we needed a change of pace. We desided to go to another church one that is quite larger than what we were used too.  We went to Sunday service and Bible Study. They played Contemporary music.  It was a change of pace for sure we felt welcomed and everyone was so nice. I am really glad it was okay.  I think that I really need to do more for others.  I am participating in a community share event and I really  am cleaning house as you can say.  I have tons of stuff and clothes that just need a new home. My family is making homeless bags with some scripture and some toiletries items.  I am doing this with my family to teach them to do unto others.  I was once homeless I lost everything twice it will never happen again. I lived in a shelter I have kept some of those relationships.  I am not homeless anymore but those times are burned in my memory. I felt so alone like nobody cared.  I didn't have a goood childhood. It was rough my mom was and still is an alcholic I have really moved her out of my life. My Christian friends think I should forgive and forget but she did this. Alchohal is a horriable drug. That's why I don't drink I never want something to have a hold onto me like that ever.  I am going on and on I am sure but I think that people need to quit hiding behind this.  Make it an open illness break free from the mind and the chains that exist.  Onto another topic we are planning our Thanksgiving dinner I am not sure what to bring to my mil house. There's so many recipes that I am good at cooking.  I will probally invite some people who don't have anyone to share their holidays with.  What are you planning on doing with your holidays?

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Getting Ready to Heal

Last night for the first time in my life I watched a movie so horrific that it seemed real. It was Precious. I had been wanting to see it and I watched it.  It brought back so many memories for me.. My mom's abuse was so vivid in my mind it was like watching a video in rewind it was horriable. I couldn't imagine treating a child like that. I just kind of identified with her I was over weight and didn't have many friends. Nobody cared someone had called CPS on my mom she cussed them out and slammed the door so they left never to come back again. It was like wow there's someone out there to help and they just left.  I couldn't believe it. When I was a child I asked about my dad his name where he worked where he was from. As a child I had hoped he wanted us (I am a twin) I was hoping he would come get us and save us from this alchohalic psychotic nut. He never did I gave up hope. It was depressing and heart breaking eventually as an adult I searched for him though due to him having a common name I couldn't find him. Just people with similar names. Finally I left a message on a phone. I didn't think I would get a call back.  I did it was him.  He called me I gave him questions. It probally felt more like an interrorgation. I asked him if he knew my mom what his birthdate was.  I peppered him with questions.  I had found him we talked on the phone I talked to my half sisters.  I have since met him and my step mom and my grandma and my cousins and aunts.  It is so hard to believe here's this loving family when I was raised in pure hell.  I was like god my sisters are so lucky.  I get emotional I think that he loves me and wants to be in my life. I wonder what he thinks sometimes. I wonder what goes through his mind.  Sometimes it keeps me up at night wondering.  Especially now that I have a family I really want him to be in our lives.  Has anyone else ever found some long lost family.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

What I am Thankful For and What is Keeping Me Busy

I have really been swamped lately with stuff. They found a suspicious spot on my lung.  I had a few CAT scans.  Then I continued on the road the wait a whole month just to have a biopsy. To see a specialist.  it was emotionally draing. I was exhausted I have felt alone. Everyone assumed even I that it was cancer but it wasn't yet. They told me if it continues to grow that's a bad sign and then they would want to do another biopsy and then a removal of the lobe. I am glad it's over the pain afterwords was bad but I survived. The other thing is that I was worried. It ate at me and ate at me and it was nasty. The coughing up blood scared me to death.  I have been cooking more spending time with my family and being grateful. For every moment and every thing that I needed to do. It is nice. My allergies have been really flared up with all this rain.  I think that the crop and the dust is horriable but thank goodness for allergy meds. They really have saved me.  I have been having lots of family dinners having lots of dinners that I have cooked. It really helps when u have so much on your mind.  My daughters been having some really fun projects at sc hool. It is fun that she is learning so much stuff.  I like to teach her things that I have learned too. My kids are so smart. I also helped plan a baby shower for my 20 year old. I can't believe that I am going to be a grandma it seems like it's just too soon. I don't even know if I want to beacome one that's called grandma. What are some cooler names that you guys use. I would love to hear your suggestions. Help me figure something out that's young cool and hip .  Have a blessed day u all.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Another Day

It  was a pretty long week I got some good and bad news this week. The good news is that I have prayed and prayed and finally it's here. The bad news is trying to figure out what to do for a girls night out. My daughter wants to have a GNO just the two of us I don't know what to do .  The bad I have an addiction to Daily Break it's a lot of little games you earn coins for answer trivia challenge your friends with on Fb etc. I really like it alot it keeps my mind sharp. I kind of want to get an Ipad to play games on are they interesting are they better than a Kindle Fire or are they over priced. Anyone know. Please feel free to share and comment.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

How to Organize your Office........

I have been working on this for awhile ... you know the biggest problem clutter.  I need to weed through the unused items.  I know this will help me .  I am trying to figure out about the file system.  I need to organize my customers info and things they buy I don't want it to be complicated.   I also need to find a way to reward my younger helpers.  My kids like the stuff to I just feel like offering them a discount wouldn't be as good for an adult as it would be for  a kid so I thought of just giving them a percentage some would go to them some to savings and some to tithing.  I think this would be the best solution.  She helps me organize my books.  She tells everyone that she knows what I do.  She is so proud of me .  It makes me proud to know that what I do makes a good deal of an impression on my kids and they are proud of me.  I have thought of some more ideas.  Just an idea machine.  wish me luck and have a blessed day.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Review : Rubbermaid Portable Filtered Water Bottle

Have I ever told you purple is my favorite color, since I was like a kid.....  I bought this bottle it's like a bike water bottle except under the lid there is a filter to filter the water as you drink.... What can I say it's ten bucks. (Which I know isn't cheap)  I told my husband this better work and not leak or I will be so disappointed guess what it WORKS!!!!!!!!!! It's worth every penny it makes water taste good.  I have gotten myself to drink two a day which is like 40 oz.  I am a soda drinker a water hater.  but this this is a game changer  for me.  It makes water taste so good you forget it's water.  The filter lasts for 3 months and you can find the filters at stores and online at Amazon.  Which is where I got mine.  I am def. going to be  getting this for some Christmas presents and I will be using it all the time,  here's the best part it's Ice friendly because admit it cold water rocks.  At the bottom of the filter is a dial which u turn to know when it has to be changed.  I am really pleased with my purchase and am glad I read the reviews and am glad I can drink water.  It's one more of my steps to becoming healthy.  Hope you guys will give it a go to

Disclaimer:  I was NOT compensated given free stuff by amazon or by rubbermaid.  I just wanted to share quality products that I paid for myself and that are worth the money I paid.  But if Amazon or Rubbermaid needed someone to test their stuff.  I would gladly reply YES!! while jumping up and down.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Husband's Operation :(

So this afternoon my husband has an operation on his foot.  I am sooooooo nervous I really think that it will all turn out ok.  I get to be there with him and it's outpatient but I have known others and they were in so much pain.  After the fact it will hurt to walk.  My friend is having her yard sale coming up this next week and I am so excited.  We are about the same size and I know she dresses cute so it's all good.  I am really excited about that.  Plus our daughters wear about the same size and they need some pants still for school. My niece is going to join me on my business op. I am really excited.  She's we are about ten years appart.  I am really happy.  I possibly might have my sister in law too.  This is so good. I am very lucky that this is working out.  I haven't been able to get into my email there's technical errors going on.  Hope that's fixed soon.  I need to get some copies made while I am at it.  I think somehow I twisted my wrist and it hurts so bad.  Either that or I slept wrong .  My husband made me a lovely biscuits and gravy breakfast .  I also had some hash it was delish. Wish us luck and pray to.  Tomorrow I will have the review  up for my new water bottle. 

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Good Breakfast's give you energy

I know that with a lot of people when they skip breakfast they feel drained and then later on they gorge themselves.  You know how I know because I am one of those people.  When I don't eat I know it.  I suggest a protein breakfast.  I am a fan of eggs toast and cheese with milk or juice.  It keeps me full till snack time.  Snacks are so  important to your body.  It can be a cheese stick an apple grapes etc.  I try to eat meat for dinner too.  I avoid fried foods.  They carry so many calories and aren't worth the cost to me.  I also joined it is a FREE website to use to track calories and your water.  You can also friend your friends.  They have an extensive website and it really helps.  If you would like to join just friend me on there my user name is kmtc1982.  I will be happy to encourage you.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Back to School Shopping at GREAT SAVINGS!!!!!!!!!!!

We found a garage sale on fb that was nearby.  They had Name brand t shirts for 50 cents and 70 dollar jeans for 5.  I got a lot of the kids back to school shopping out of the way plus she told me we could have the leftovers.  I am really happy all I need for my little girl is some of the shorts and jeans and shoes and then we are set.  I picked up some of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books for me.  My  hubs picked up some dvds  for 50 cents.  That was a huge deal as he's a big movie buff.  The leftovers we are going to donate if any to the domestic violence shelter.  I was a victim at 17 and I will help someone in anyway that I can.  I have some errands to run today and hope to blog again soon.  have a blessed day.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Such a busy day

We had such a packed day yesterday.  We went to VBS .  I dropped off some maternity clothes for my step daughter.  Then we went to my nieces 3rd B-day party.  She got some cute stuff.  We had a really nice cookout too.  I was so exhausted by the time I got home I just wanted to go to sleep.  I couldn't sleep right away but I  slept until like 3 o'clock when I had to go to the bathroom bad then I laid back down and went to sleep.  One of the kiddies had her friend stay the night.  it's been kinda loud.  I'm not used to all the texting and not playing with everyone stuff.   I firmly believe that everyone should get along and play together and when that doesn't happen it makes me feel like the phones need to go home and if it still doesn't happen then the friend needs to go back home .  Hoping that today they get along better wish me luck.

Friday, July 20, 2012

So far for getting help

Well I have been trying to download this update for itunes for two days everytime I get to the end it times out I am so frustrated the second guy told me to disconect my anti virus software,  or go to another computer so I guess I will just have to wait and try to do it else ware.  I am so disappointed with this I thought this would work guess not hope I can have this fixed by tomorrow.  Wish me luck all.

Review: Aldi's Happy Farm Cheese

I shop at Aldi's quite a bit.  I like a lot of their products and some I don't.  Their cheese tastes good it melts just like the more expensive cheeses.  I buy it if I am running low on funds.  I also buy it but they don't sell it in bulk.  So I can't save any money.  If I need it in larger bags I always shop at a bigger store.  The cheese is good I usually get the sharp cheddar.  It's not as sharp as say Kraft cheese.  But in a pinch it works and I buy it alot.  Although their prices have gone up in their dairy department.  It sometimes saves me money to buy it elsewhere.  I just love a lot of their products their milk and eggs flour etc.  taste the same as the national brands.  Sometimes the sales at other stores are better though.  So I was not compensated or given any gifts etc.  I bought this product with  my own money.  Just wanted to share with you my opinion.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Review : Mcdonalds NEW Dipped Cone

I love ice cream.  Especially on a 104 degree day.  It's a little bit taller vanilla cone dipped into Milk Chocolate .  It was 1.29.  Let me tell you It was DELICIOUS!!! It was worth every penny.  Matter of face I would have paid more for it. It tasted like Chocolate you melted yourself.  They use quality ingredients.  It was so good.  My kids each got one too and they were impressed let me tell you it was so good.  I really liked the flavors and the textures .  Since we live so close to them I really am going to be getting one more often.  NO Mcdonalds didn't give me free food this opinion was made using my own money and time and I was in no way compensated for it.  But if they ever wanted a taster for their products I like trying new things it was so good.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Kinda Busy week so much to do not so much time

Well I have been so busy lately and I have wondered what goes through peoples minds.  I have been like making appointments and getting laundry done all day.  It feels like a never ending battle.  Got most of the clutter gone.  I think that sleep really escaped me last night it was after 2 am before I got to sleep.  I have no idea why though.  I have been playing games on my ipod I wonder if anyone can reccomend anything that's a cool app to play on it.  If you are looking to get one target has some online deals only that are cheaper than walmart.  They may price match as they usually do.  So I am hoping that it gets cooler today as I am still hot already.  The one child is going to stay the night at her friends house tonite.  I still don't know what to have for supper any ideas I got hamburger out of the fridge.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Dieting that went out the Window in a big way........

So last night we had a gc for a fantastic dinner.   And the sad part I kinda threw the diet out the window.   I ate some fruit and veggies and a lot of fried foods.  That's exactly why I don't like to go to buffets the temptations are too much.  I hadn't ate there for quite some time and it was really hard not to indulge into dangerous territory.  I tell you what that night  I had heartburn from HELL and also I thought I was going to throw up I was so full. Today I did some walking and I felt crappy I tend to fell like that when I eat a lot of fried foods.  The people are usually nice and the place is pretty busy.   I ordered water.   I drank two glasses too.  It made me fill up and plus I don't like their diet pop.    I know I should totally give up the fried food but sometimes it tastes too tasty.   Some of the kids are going to a party today.  I am not going.  It's not my kind of outing the heat index it is high today plus my asthma attack took a lot outta me this morning.  I keep  putting up some recipes for the wedding album and hope that it turns out well.  I think I will put it in a binder.   The bad thing about all this is she's mildly retarded and I worry about making it easy enough for her to understand and not to complicated.  I keep worrying about our budget and thinking of using the envelope system.  Though I am not sure.  Wish me luck all..

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Reiew Time Chobani Blueberry Yogurt

I had seen them on a commercial  I went to the store and bought some so the flavor I wanted to try was the blue berry.    The yogurt was thick and creamy.   It was filling it had enough protein  to fill you up for a snack the blueberries were on the bottom.  I tried the top first it was tick and sweet with a slightly sour taste that wasn't  off putting.  Them I mixed in the blueberries.  Let me tell you it was delicious.  It was thick and creamy and tasty.  I liked how the blueberries was plenty there was no skimping there either.  It was really wonderful I really enjoyed how tasty it was.  I was not given free yogurt I used my own money and I will continue to buy it because it was wonderful.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Crafting Time

I am working on crocheting some presents.  I am also looking for a pattern for some stuff for the kids.  Also I am looking into bartering for some Knitted items and some fresh produce .  I would also like to look into a side of beef and pork but first I need to get a large freezer I need to look around and compare some prices around town.  Also I want to look for some fresh chicken eggs.  They shouldn't be too hard to find in our area.  Hope that everyone has a blessed day.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

New ADHD and ODD Ideas

Well we are still working on the anger management.   Sharing is so difficult for him also he wants things his way.  Let me tell you it's suck a challenge to deal with someone like this.  I have tried to work things out so that it stops the challenges.  We have really talked things out and taken away radios video games and privilages .  It has helped out a lot.  I still have to really keep my eyes on him around other kids because sometimes he can play kind of rough.  The therapists are working with him 6 hours a week.  I have seen some changes but it's a long road.  I know we can do it though.  Also we are using some reward bucks to help him .  I know god can really work some miracles and we can do this just time.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Sick Hubby Sick friend Loooong Day

Ever since the hubby fell he's been in a lot of pain.. I feel so bad for him.  Also the my step daughter saw the Dr. again.. Just for a check up.  I made my own version of beefaroni it has extra tomato juice in it I try to sneak it in just because the kids don't like it plain.  The kids have been playing with their friends.  I am not sure what I am going to cook tomorrow.  I am thinking of grilling out.  I really think that I may try to grill out some potato packages with onions green peppers and some seasonings.  I also have been thinking of grilling corn I googled it because I am so not sure if it would turn out so good.  I use a non gas grill. It's so much nicer I found a really large grill for 25 bucks.  That was a steal for a new grill.  I am also thinking of new ideas for my blog.  It's really amazing to have people read what you write.  Not that I am boring but it's nice to know people that care.  I am thinking of writing a few companies to whom I enjoy their products and hope they will let me share their thoughts about their stuff.  I think that would be awesome.  I would also like to try some new stuff for the grand baby.  I think it would be awesome because I have to get two of everything for her house and mine for when he's here wish me luck.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Mommy Day How Exciting

I have been doing some brainstorming,  with my son's ADHD and Mental issues it's hard to find stuff that interests him for longer periods of time.  He really likes his toy cars.  I think we may go fishing though.  He loves to play outdoors but his bicycle chain broke and we have been trying to find parts.  I start a new week on WW.  I really miss the meetings I wish they were closer and cheaper.  The good news is that our car is paid off completely .  No more car payments.  I am happy but it's weird too as I am so used to that payment coming out every month.  The car has a good book value.  My dreams are coming together.  The kids were looking in the paper there's so many really nice stuff people are selling.  I would like to barter some of my crocheting skills and cooking skills for deer and CSA and other things like homemade soap lotion lip balm homemade wallets etc am I asking too much let me know your opinion please.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Flavored Water

I am a pinetrest addict I am constantly searching for money saving ideas.  I found some recipes for flavored water.  Now I don't like the store bought kind.  I like the kind that I can make myself.  I am going to be trying some new flavors and reporting back to let you know what I like if you have any ideas feel free to share them I love hearing from my readers what works for them.  I have been really following my WW plan and I can feel the difference.  I will let you know how this works out wish me luck.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

New Recipe: Swiss Steak

2 lbs. Ground beef ( I used 90% lean)
Garlic Salt Pepper
4 chopped Green or colored Peppers
2 chopped onion ( cut into rings )
2 Jars of spagetti sauce
Tomatoe Juice as much as you would like

Brown seasoned Hamburger patties in two skillets.  Flip While cooking add peppers and onions cook till the veggies turn soft.  Add juice and sauce cook on med stir occasionally .  Enjoy.  Hope you like it this is a huge meal could use leftovers for lunch or another night.  But we have a big family.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Saving Money while Keeping Cool

Get some rags or wash rags and get them damp than let them freeze.  When they are frozen take them out you can keep them out as needed.  I keep mine to put on my neck when I am super duper hot.  Also they sell those ones with beads that  expand when they have been soaked in water. They are really inexpensive and you can also make heat packs with them for sore muscles etc.  you can also economically make one by using a sock  filled with rice.  You can make one out of scraps of fabric or old socks etc.  That's my money saving tip for today.  Hope everyone has a really good Memorial Day Weekend.  Support our troops when you can they are so brave and so many have lost their lives so that we may live free.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Great way to Earn Extra Money ..........

I have been on this site for quite a while it's called Superpoints you earn points that you can trade in for paypal or gift cards you get points by refering your friend and pressing the super lucky button also by surveys and emails that you get you can share your link on your blogs or you can facebook or email your friends.  I have earned enough to cash out rather quickly too.  Every little bit helps if you are interested Here's my referral link   Hope it helps someone as much as it has helped me.  Let me know what you think I love getting comments.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Praying and rejoycing in Friendship

It's been a few rough patches lately I am so grateful for my church family for praying for us.  I need to try to find the time to read the bible some more.   I would like to read the whole thing.  I think it may take a year for me to do it.  Which reminds me their is a schedule that I should follow I just need to google it.  I have thought of some frugal meals that we can have with chicken.  Last night we celebrated a dinner at my MIL house.  We had tacos and they were delicious.  I think we may have BBQ chicken tonite.   I think we will have green beans and garlic toast with it.  It sounds awful good.  We are trying to eat healthier and not run to the grocery store several times a week.  I really know that it kills are budget.  My husband doesn't like the ideas of planning meals in advance.  He is a fly by the seat kind of guy.  I like to know in advance.  I said we could make it and then switch days if that's what he wanted but still no go.  Hopefully I can convince him to go along with it on a trial basis.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Long time no See

I haven't blogged in so long... I forgot how wonderful it is.  My son has ODD/ADHD he also was recently diagnosed with Light Sensitive including video game epilepsy.  They did an EEG on him and we had to wait for the results.  He had had a major seizure over spring break.  It was really bad..  He used to have feb seizures but he had since grown out of them or so I thought.  The specialist told me yes this is a form of epilepsy.  They put him on Kepra I got lots of info from the drug store.  I wasn't sure if this was something I wanted him on.  For the first day (he took the pill at night) His behavior had gotten worse. I called the Dr.  she changed it to Depakote.  Which scary enough I was highly allergic to as a child.  I don't actually touch that medicine I put it in the lid.  I don't know if I grew out of it or not.  My daughter was in a bicycle accident with a friend from school.  So much has happened.  I have been reading the bible more and doing some deep thinking.  I am hoping that this works.  He hasn't had a seizure since then.  But I don't allow him to play video games anymore.  It's hard for him to understand the Dr. said half an hour a day was ok but too me it wasn't worth the risk.  His dad thinks that it's ok and still allows it on his visits.  It's hard to explain why it's ok there and not here.  The Friday before Easter our beloved Uncle passed away.  It was such a hard thing as I didn't get a chance to say goodbye and of course I have the memories but it's not the same.  The kids got new bikes a few weeks ago so they have been riding them .  I hope to do some more blogging soon.......

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

SO much going on

Well we are still unpacking from the move our house looks awesome. My MIL came over and she was impressed. My hubbs bought the paper for me so that is really  awesome.  Going to run some  errands

Sunday, February 5, 2012

The resources availiable for ADHD/ODD

Trying to find resources avail in our state has become like a full time job.  I really wonder why it's not simple.  I keep trying to find some support groups for moms also.  It's an uphill battle really.  I am still reeling over the mr diagnosis.  It's like it should be obvious to me and it's not. (I figured if there was  a problem it would have shown it's self much earlier than ten) .  I cry about it but not like before most of my friends are willing to help me have a shoulder to cry on if need be.  I had these big dreams and it's like shattered now.  Some people are in denial that it is this.  Why would someone make this up to hurt someone else.  We had the party on Friday it was exhausting.  She didn't even think about thanking me.  Which would have been nice to be appreciated. I don't know.  I am going to look at some more ideas though hope that I can have time to blog more this month that would rock.  Take care all.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Moving our Family

So we moved the last few weeks.  It is such a drain the packing the moving everything.  The kids have their own space.  It has opened up a lot of stuff though.  I am really glad we were able to move.  Our house has a fenced in back yard.  I miss not living in the country I miss the deer the sounds of birds.  We live in another small town nearby.  I really hope that it all works itself out.  I used to live next door to my cousins and my uncles house.  It's weird not having them there.  I had an asthma attack last night.  I was afraid  I might have to go to the hospital.  Even with my inhaler I still couldn't breathe easy.  We have new cable and garbage service.  They seem to work well.  I still haven't remembered our new phone number.  That really sucks for me.  My husbands like all the movie channels I hope to get more blogging done in the next few weeks.  Hope to hear from you guys soon.