Today the awfulness and the wonderous.............

First of all I want to tell  everyone I am blessed that I am here .   I feel hurt in my hear for those who lost loved ones due to the planes hitting the toward.  I was only 18 than I watched it on tv unfolding.  I couldn't believe it.  I mean it was such a massive accident I didn't know weather I should keep watching or turn it off.  It was a very emotional day for me.  I really think that there's a lot of hateful things going on in the world now.  I hope that it changes.  Everyone should accept others even if they are not rail thin or the smartest person.  I think a lot of these people are upset because they have nothing going on for them.   They don't have the choices we have here due to education and jobs etc.  I think these people are offering them a chance to belong and they need the money and they are alone.  That sort of things.  I went to church this morning I think that it went well I really like the new preacher.  I think he is open and honest.  That's what we needed.  We had a fill in preacher for six months he had upset some of the other members. So he was asked not to return.  It's a small church so I understand.  Anyways I am thinking of implementing a sunday school program for younger kids 2 year olds to 4 th graders.  I don't know if I have the support needed.  I don't know if the church would help out with some of the costs involved.  So I am praying for  a solution.  I hope this works out for the best.  Wish me luck

Long Day For Sure

I didn't sleep well last night the puppies have all passed away.  I am so upset that this would happen.  I feel awful about it.  Cars in the shop getting fixed and it may take all day and I have a boat load of stuff to get done.  Imagine that right.  My daughters in some charity events so we will be busy with that next month.  I am proud of her she has such a giving heart and soul would help anyone.  I tracked my calories yesterday.  I am eating more veggies and such I wish I had a ww buddy here.  It's hard to stay motivated because of the temptations.  This colder weather makes me want to have a bonfire. And roast my hot dogs.  Can you believe my husband hates smores. (I know right) !! I think it's  crazy.  I have been doing a lot of praying and I feel sort of sad.  I talked so someone who I thought would be supportive but ended up not being so much and was full of making me feel bad.  This is someone who I thought would understand I am so disappointed in this.  I put a lot of faith on a limb but that's ok tomorrows another day.  I have an itunes gc coming can't wait to use it hope it's not complicated.  I have been having trouble figuring it out.  I hate reading the instructions for things I think they should be user friendly.  Which they are not.  I have so much to do today but I just wanted to put it out there. It may be easier to deal with later until next time have fun!! Stay warm.